I’ve never been a incredibly organized person. Responsible? Yes! Reliable? Absolutely! But organized? Not so much. Well, life has gotten incredibly busy for me in the recent weeks and I’m doing my best to turn a new leaf. You may have noticed that my blog posts have been pretty sparse. Aside from a few sponsored posts during the holidays there hasn’t been much going on here.
However, that is all about to change (I hope). In the last few weeks I’ve had a hard time
finding the time just getting off my butt and writing. The holidays are a big part of it but also I’ve struggled to find a balance between family, housekeeping, and general day to day operations around here.
FYI- this is NOT where I tell you all about my grand New Year’s Resolution. Instead I’m making a promise to myself, a promise to simply try harder. I’ve been quick to make excuses to myself about being tired, being too busy, feeling unmotivated, but the truth is I’ve just been lazy. It’s been too easy to just zone out at the end of the day instead of taking an hour or two in the evening to focus on my writing.
On top of that I’ve just been in a funky place in my own head. I’ve been out of work for over a year. Money has been tighter that usual. The terrible twos have kicked in with our youngest. I’ve just felt overwhelmed and under-appreciated. So instead of whining about it and feeling sorry for myself I’ve decided to do something about it!
Just this week I picked up a full time babysitting job during the week. I’ll be watching my good friend’s two kiddos. So not only does that mean wrangling four kiddos under the age of five during the week (yikes!)….it’s also means a paycheck for me! Sure, I make a little bit here and there from blogging but it will be extremely helpful to have consistent income coming in now after almost two years.
This is what I’ve been missing….a routine, a purpose, a feeling of accomplishment at the end of the day. I finally feel like I have the renewed energy and drive to get up off of my ass and make it happen. I’ve downloaded some shiny new accounting software so I can keep the budget in check. I’m meal planning again. I’ve started waking up at least an hour before the kiddos so I can enjoy a hot cup of coffee (without having to reheat it even once!) and plan for the day.
Another thing I’m doing is writing, a lot of writing! Don’t get me wrong, I’m not pulling extra time out of the air. What I’m doing is taking advantage of the quiet moments. It’s amazing how much you can do with a tablet and/or a smart phone! While the kiddos are eating I’m dictating the latest blog post with a phone app. While waiting at the school drop off I can quickly check and respond to emails.
My editorial calendar is slowly filling in with planned content and I’m feeling cautiously optimistic! It could just be that I’m running off of the high the comes with ringing in a new year or simply that I’m finally hitting a groove. One thing is for sure, I’m doing my very best to keep myself on track. Once I stop trying EVERYTHING suffers and I’m just not willing to allow that to happen. Instead I will continue to try harder and who knows? Maybe someday I’ll catch a glimpse of that parental bliss that I’ve been searching for.
Do you sometimes find yourself stuck in a rut? How do you keep the balance in your life?