**I want to start this post off by saying that I have dealt with anxiety on and off for a good part of my adult life. However, after some minor medication coupled with counseling I have been healthy for the last couple of years. Just recently anxiety made an unexpected return to my home. This time affecting my husband. He will be okay and we will get through it but it has compelled me to give this beast a piece of my mind.
Having said that, I also want to warn you. I might curse….okay, I DID curse and if that is offensive to you I apologize in advance. This is me being as real I possibly can about a sensitive subject that quite frankly pisses me off. I hope you understand.**
For the most part I am the eternal optimist. It is very easy for me to find the silver lining in most situations. However, even the most positive person can get pulled into your evil little web. We have a long history, you and I, and I think the time has come to let you know that you have worn out your welcome. Just to be clear…..it’s not me, it’s you!
You wormed your way into my life years ago. You came and went as you pleased. You showed up at my door uninvited. You made me cry. You made me doubt myself. You made me feel like I was going crazy. You made me physically ill.
At no point were you ever gentle, kind, or understanding, You were selfish, mean, and hurtful. Being in your grasp felt like being squeezed by a rubber band until I was sure that the tension would snap and cause me to go over the edge. You tried to break me and for that….I. Hate. You.
Once I finally recognized you for the bitch you were I fought you with everything I had. Aside from medication my biggest weapon was to talk about you. To admit, out loud, that you had knocked me around and brought me to my knees. I learned the tools and coping mechanisms to hold you at bay. I overcame you. I won!
Until now….you’ve returned and set your sites on the one I love. GET OUT!!!!! I’ve had it with you! You are not welcome here!!! Do you understand me??? It’s two against one this time and you, my friend, are screwed. We are stronger than you are and have the tools to make you disappear. You have officially been given your eviction notice.
You have been warned. I have nothing more to say to you as I refuse to entertain you any further.
PS: Oh and by the way, fuck you!